You will be terribely missed Hassan...

I'm totally shattered...
I never imagined Hassan leaving me, his loved ones, everyone so soon...not this way..by breaking everyone's heart...
Just 40 and everything going for him...this is the hardest part of my life...
What do you do when a person you have practically lived and shared everything with for 13 long years is just gone...one fine morning?

I'm at Singapore airport at the moment... trying the NEC free internet... I see Hassan's mom and sisters sleeping on the lounge chairs, all tired and spent...and still we need to head to Malaysia for the funeral...Write now while i'm writing this, post mortem is being done on his body and i'm in shock... He wouldn't like it at all... this was not the kind of death he would have preferred..but nobody can help it i guess... yesterday I was just death walking... I was breathing, but i guess im just dead inside now... just because a person is breathing doesn't make him or her alive... im exhausted... im tired of life... i'm tired because i dunno what to do.. now that he's gone...The last person he spoke before he passed away was me, so I guess it was his way of saying goodbye... I'll never be the same again.... May god watch over my dear Hassan... I will always love you even if you are not here.. I'm still waiting like you asked me to... maybe you'll never come back..but I will keep my promise to you Hassan.. Bless you. Do you know that all your childhood friends came over and shed their tears for you??? May the angels always keep you sheltered under their wings... you deserve it Hassan. Because you were a lovely man, wonderful to your friends and always there for everyone.. you will be terribely missed...