Cruel Love

I want to do to you
What the bees does to the flowers..
What the rain does to the earth
What love does to foolish hearts...
What sorrow does to happiness

Let me love you so cruelly
that even when im gone
you remember me by
with the pain and anguish
with scars and wounds
I inflicted on your heart...

Oh! please, Let me love you..
and Let me do to you
What death does to life...

[I feel no pain tonight... no sorrow, i feel like pouring out my heart...even when i do i still feel somethings are held back...and yet i find so much peace in sharing my innermost self...a love i felt and couldnt touch..a love i hurt and felt melt in my hands...a love i would love to go back to, but will turn my back on, always...a love there is no end to, till its buried...]

Lonely monsoons

My skin tingles..
bones shiver..
My nerves are a wreck
heart bleeds...
My lipz are frozen...
tongue is tied..
My legs frigid...
fingers numb

My mind is confused...
What is not without you..?

[Its raining here like hell tonight...and my inspiration are running wild...and i feel lonely...a million drops falling from the heavens..and each drop cold and alone in itself...like me..among millions of people...and yet alone...scarey thought...Oh Rain! let me sleep peacefully...]

What Are You?

What are you
If You were not YOU
A few minutes ago?

Just Susan.....?

Shamabama and MSN nights...

Again one of those MSN nights... me and my pal shama. she got so pissed off i just had to piss her off more by putting this here...

*after 5 minutes of Hi's..*

susan says:
got this nice song ey...
shama says:
its gonna eat up bandwith n now is a bad time coz am doing research...wat song is it?
susan says:
hini ves annaane bunefiyyaa
susan says:
hurey kiyaadheynan
susan says:
ehemehm..waitu ready vanee mi kiyan
shama says:
lol
susan says:
elava salhi vefa sensual kamun hiyeh nuvey faseyhain kiyeyne hen ves
susan says:
alhey!
susan says:
wait mi hivvaru hoffa karu saafu kollaafa kiyanee
shama says:
kihaaa bodu kameh?!
susan says:
aan hurey
susan says:
un hoon
susan says:
dhen bunefaane viyya magey adu hadi ey forum ga, ehenve visnan vaane mikahala kanthah kuraa iru
shama says:
lol
shama says:
mioh kameh alah dho mi adu ahaneee
shama says:
:s
susan says:
ok ok nubunaathi ingey ekaku kaireegaves
susan says:
ma varah shy vaane aslu
shama says:
soooooooooooon kihaaaa bodu kameh
susan says:
oh ok ok :+ mi fattanee ingey
susan says:
visnaa gen hunnaathi! godin vetti dhaane hama
shama says:
*me grips the arms of the chair tightly n braces me self*
shama says:
kiyaa
susan says:
ok,maves guard thakaa echiss mi elhee
susan says:
lava ekeegatha beynumee? noonee than than kolhun buri koffatha?
susan says:
ey ehah dhookollaa godin
susan says:
adhi ekan ninmaafa salaamthah takaa fiyavalhu alhan vaanee
shama says:
*me lets go* now wat?
susan says:
ok wait..dhen decide kobbala lava ekkon tho ma kiyaadheynvee?
susan says:
noonee buri buri koffa thoa? eyrun bunan ekamaku hadi vaane
shama says:
buri buri will do fine
susan says:
thee selfish vanee
shama says:
ok ehenveeru ekkoh
susan says:
aan ekkoh rangalhu
susan says:
ma mee ehaa ginain lava kiyaa dhey meeheh ves noon viyya
shama says:
will u do it already? :x
susan says:
uh oh....:+ eyoh geyn nettee
susan says:
biru bodu! screen in atheh ais magolaa karuga ves hifaa faane
susan says:
shitu
shama says:
*me taps foot impatiently n looks around for somethin heavy n long*
susan says:
amaa thuki :S hure hurey! mp3 ready kuranee mi
susan says:
pause ves kuran jeheyne komme verse eh liyefa
susan says:
hithakun neynge ey
susan says:
ekamaku hama salhi lavaeh.....

And it went on and on....dhuvahaku elavaeh nukiyunu and she was pissed off!!!!